2.04.2008

Stand and Deliver

We all want to be courageous. Fight--go over the top, when necessary. I've been mistaken in that I thought courage took action.

God has been proving me wrong.

There is an issue in my life that God is working on. A wound that was imperfectly healed is now being healed completely. The only problem is that, like a poorly set bone, I have to be rebroken in order to heal correctly. So I'm a mess right now! Going through emotion and pain that I thought I was done with...knowing that I can't do anything to make it better--or it will only make it worse.

That's what God is teaching me. Yes, He wants us to be brave, but sometimes that bravery takes the form of standing still, and allowing God to go before and do the work (in a moment!) you would have strived for months to get done. To be still, so God can show up (and show off!).

I don't think I've ever been so sorely tried as I've been this past week. But it's working...every time I feel pain, I wait on the Lord, and He's faithful to show me the truth to the lie I've been believing. It's scary (and exciting!) to rely entirely on Him--but I know that's the bottom line of the lesson I've been learning (really) for the last few years. Trust God to be Who He is at any point in your life.

2.04.2008

Stand and Deliver

We all want to be courageous. Fight--go over the top, when necessary. I've been mistaken in that I thought courage took action.

God has been proving me wrong.

There is an issue in my life that God is working on. A wound that was imperfectly healed is now being healed completely. The only problem is that, like a poorly set bone, I have to be rebroken in order to heal correctly. So I'm a mess right now! Going through emotion and pain that I thought I was done with...knowing that I can't do anything to make it better--or it will only make it worse.

That's what God is teaching me. Yes, He wants us to be brave, but sometimes that bravery takes the form of standing still, and allowing God to go before and do the work (in a moment!) you would have strived for months to get done. To be still, so God can show up (and show off!).

I don't think I've ever been so sorely tried as I've been this past week. But it's working...every time I feel pain, I wait on the Lord, and He's faithful to show me the truth to the lie I've been believing. It's scary (and exciting!) to rely entirely on Him--but I know that's the bottom line of the lesson I've been learning (really) for the last few years. Trust God to be Who He is at any point in your life.