So many things have happened, a cursory rundown of the highlights seems tactless. Plus, it's probably better to focus on today, rather than the heartbreaking year I've had.
Currently unemployed. Stressed and not sleeping well. Living for the days I get to leave the house to go to church.
Such a depressing period in my life. I keep telling myself to reach out to God, and really immerse myself in His word--as I haven't had this much time on my hands since college--but most days I find myself triumphant if I get out of bed and do the dishes.
I never realized how much I needed regimen until it was all taken away from me. I feel, most days, like my brain is melting. I look for things to do while I'm doing things already--watching a movie and surfing the internet, doing a crossword puzzle, researching for a book I might one day write, walk Savannah and read a novel...things I used to squeeze into the small amount of leisure time I used to have.
I'm intrigued by the idea of going into business for myself. I am daunted by the sheer number of attorneys in Texas, though. And afraid I won't have what it takes to hustle. I find myself dreaming of government jobs and jobs in education--where the bottom line isn't the bottom line and I could contribute and do some good in the world.
The money was never the reason I chose my profession (though it's nice, when you have it). I just thought it made more sense to fight injustice from INSIDE the system.
And I have to trust that God means what He says, and that He hasn't brought me this far to leave me.